
My life, My Story…
Money can’t buy everything… but should we give up on it when our hope must face to face with money?
I came from the ordinary family in little village in Magetan. When I was child, everything seems fine. It was nice when I went to the kindergarten. Honestly, that place was not good. It placed near with what people said “Pabik Gula” place where sugar made. For me, that place bit frightened and so noised. Then I went to elementary school. I remembered that I have Indonesian language competition and I won it. Everything was so marvelous and my family supported me a lot. I loved every day I opened my eyes. New days, meant new experienced.
Then I went to junior high school, it was the time my brother went to university. My parent never complaint or seem have difficulty to paid the tuition fee for us. There, I met new friends came from so many different placed where I never had experienced before when I was on my elementary school. That was unforgettable moment. Just maybe all of you did so. On that time, I learned bit about business. After school I would went to my parent’s shop to help them.
I graduated from my junior high school with good achievement. Then I went to the senior high school near on that placed. I was seventeen when I first time thought about university. That was my first semester on my third grade in senior high school. I loved studied at senior high school, I loved studied Biology and several times I followed Biology Olympiad. Many people supported me to take Biology major when I went to university. I wanted be a doctor, but my parent said it was hard for them paid the tuition fee. I hoped God gave me miracle. And what could I did just study harder and gave the best. Several times I won Biology contest, it grown my faith and my confidence to study Biology more.
It was four months before UAN was held. I tried to apply in some university, and two weeks later I got letter confirmed that I accepted in one of the university with the lowest tuition fee. How I told to my parents how happy I was on that time? But when I met my parent, I just told them while I saw their face seems not as happy as me. They said they got financial difficulty. I knew they have financial problem but I never expected that it would be this worse that they couldn’t sent me to university. But what could possibly I said? I just tried to understand their position. Many times I wanted to blame them. I got envied of my brother. Why he could went to university while I not. It was hurt me a lot and it was not easy to accept that. But I tried to understand.
On that night, I opened my diary it was on year 2007 when I wrote that I wanted to get scholarship that I possibly went to university with free charge.
This was what I’ve written in my diary
Home, 12 / 10 /2007; 21:17
Dear God,
Lord, today I’m on my holiday. Thank you so much for your help in my mid test. Even my score not the best in the class but I believe, integrity need to keep in my heart, right? Lord, today my brother spends his holiday at home. I need to decide what major I want to take in university. I really don’t know Lord. Lord, today is amazing. Our shop goes so well that we can earn much money than before. Thanks for Your blessing ^^. Lord, Sally, Carolina, Jimmy, Lia, and most of my friend want to school at Petra. Honestly, I also want to school at Surabaya too. That I can together with them. But it will cost a lot. Lord, please give me scholarship and good score for graduate.
Home, 12 / 02 /2008; 21:52
Dear God,
Today I got info that UPH offer scholarship. I hope I can got 100% scholarship because I need it so much. But, what I know there is no Biology major. And if I want to take management, what I want is in IBM class. Ma Chung has it, but it’s too expensive for me. I don’t know Lord, I really confuse. To be a student at UPH, what I heard need TOEFL 500 for minimum. Can I? Do You have any better idea Lord? I really don’t know what I should do. It’s ok for me taking management but I need take IBM class. It will really awesome if I can get double degree…. Wow…. Even it’s hard to believe but I will take my faith on You. Your words never change.
Home, 19 / 04 /2008; 18:45
Dear God,
Lord, I want to say thank you so much. I accepted as ones of the student at UPH with 100% scholarship. I know it is miracle for me. Lord, three days more I will have national examination. It is very important for me. Lord, I know I have do a lot of mistakes to my brothers, my parent, grandma, my friends, and You. I know I have spent so many time did useless things. But now, please forgive me Lord, give me a chance that I can graduate this year. I know it is not because of my ability, my strength, but it because of You.
Surabaya, 20 / 08 /2008; 17:00
Dear God,
Lord, this is my second day in UPH festival 01. Yesterday my parent came here. And surprisingly, I can study in international class. Oh Jesus, it is really make me so happy. Thank you so much. I know its miracle. But I know I must be humble. I can be conceited. But, thank you for this thing. It is very meaningful to me. It’s amazing.
I really felt hopeless on that time. I just got stuck with my hope and money I couldn’t paid for. Then took my prayer on that night, hoped God would gave me miracle. Maybe for some people they not truly knew about struggling on money. But I experienced on that. Then on the next Sunday, I went to the church with my family, at the end of it, the priest announced that UPH offered scholarship. What could I said? I saw my parents face, they looked so enthusiast as I did. After I got all of those requirements, I sent my form to UPH, every night we sat down together and start to prayed for the scholarship. Honestly, it was not effortless for us to take our faith on it because I knew so many students out there also applied for it. But since my parent encouraged me to believed totally on God, I started to surrender on him. Two months after I sent my form, I’ve informed that I accepted in UPH. And it was exactly three days before national examination.
For my family, that would be memorable moment that showed how big Lord cares us. Maybe for some of people they don’t really feel grateful about their wealthy because they never face financial problems. Maybe you can imagine how is my feeling when most of my friends start to talk about their university and their facility they will get while I struggle on my financial problem. I can’t blame my parent because I can’t take Biology major as I wished. But I believed what God has given to me is the best. The struggling doesn’t end on that. So many things made me cried and felt so uncomfortable when it was my first time went to UPH. I feel unconfident when looking on my friend. They’re so beautiful, they can buy as much make up stuff as they want, while I need to save my money and use it just for buying a new cloth. How can I be like them? I came from not too rich family. I jealous when my friend can went to the mall and shopping regularly. It just likes rare time for me to do that. It is happening until now. As I know my parent have difficulty in financial, I try to being thrift. It feels so uncomfortable when my friends start to tell their vacation in Singapore or went outside while I just sat in my parent’s shop to help them. For a while I start to grip. Sometimes I ask God why I born not in the rich family? That I would have so many clothes like my friend, could go vacation with whole of family, and could go shopping in all the time I want, can have up to date gadget and all the things they have. Most of them do that. But then I realized, when God gave me opportunity to study it mean He care of me. For that time, I try to accept my condition either my family. So that until now, even I just have so little money in my pocket, that will never make me grumble anymore. At least, I can eat every day. I try to always grateful with everything I have now.
I also want that at the future I can take my master degree in US surely with scholarship. Being a manager in multinational company will so challenging for me. It requires so much faith and effort to make it happen. But God has given me this UPH scholarship, He also will give me what I want in the future. So that I try my best and let God do the rest. Life will never be easy even we have so much money. What makes life better is the acceptance about ourselves and being gratefully with all things God give to us.
Evy Anggraeni R.